uhmm… i don’t know exactly why, for the last three days i’ve got something’s not right in my days. every night my tears always fall down, and it really bother me much! i try to pray.. so maybe i can lose this feeling soon, but until last night i still have those silly things.

Those are the dissaponted felt! I know that.. i still feel it, and i’m surely sure it bother me much, i really don’t want those things are back again in my days. i have my own days now, my days are not fully alone, i have my friends, and right now there’s someone who very really nice to me. i should not have those silly things again. i burried it! down in the bottom of my heart.

These three days were killing me alot!
i hate someone from the past, and i want it let it go. i hope i can really heal from my wounded, i hope i can release all those dissapointed felt.
next month will going to be a better Birthday for me, and i want to celebrate it with all i have now… without anything from my past… i have to let it go… have to!!!

well.. i hope i can sleep well tonight..

In A Rush
by Blackstreet

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

how I try to express
whats been troublin’ my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that somethings got a hold of me

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you’ll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel in
feel what I feel inside

and when i say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and thats something I cant explain
its over me

cuz it came over me in a rush
when Ii realized that I love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

4 someone whose been inspiring me a couple night…
don’t know what to say to you dear…
Thank you…

Rasanya klu yang namanya farewell gag harus di sebut party kan ya? seperti 2 hr t’akhir ini, tepatnya hari sabtu-minggu kemaren, detik2 menjelang salah 1 kakak sepu2 kesayanganku yang harus pamit untuk pindah kerja di luar kota, tepatnya di batam.

2 hari kemaren mmg, ku habiskan kumpul2 sm keluarga besar, apalagi mmg kakakku ituh, mas heru namanya, harus dah jalan hari mggu malemnya. jadilah kami sekeluarga sengaja menghabiskan waktu bersama sama. Kebetulan mmg aku dengan dia sangat2 dekat! kemana mana klu dia lg off dr kerjanya, kami pasti jalan bareng, entah ituh makan bareng, nonton bareng, sampe berenang dan cuma sekedar kongkow2 di cafenya dia dulu kerja Hard Rock Cafe.red…
yaaa.. sekarang ga lagi dapet gratisan guest list dari dia dech! klu dulu kita2 sering bgt gratisan nonton live nya arties2 concert di Hard-Rock, sekarang mah bakalan tinggal gigit jari ajah lah…

Mas heru ini mmg tadinya kerja di Hard-Rock Cafe as a senior Bartender, trus entah kapan dia dapat tawaran kerja lg dr salah 1 manager entertaint nya u pindah atw megang salah 1 cafe baru di kota Batam. Tentunya dengan tawaran salary yg jauh bbrpa kali lbh besar dan posisi yg lbh tinggi dari di tempat kerjanya yg dulu. setelah memikirkan dan ijin sana sini sm keluarga, keputusan di ambil u pindah ke Batam.
ya… kami keluarga mmg cuma bisa berdoa saja kan… semoga ini yg terbaik yg dia jalani, “mumpung masih sendiri yaa Le’…” gtu kata bude ku..

Aku mmg sangat dekat dgn dia,selain krn kami mmg seumuran, itu karena mmg kebetulan kami msh 1 darah keluarga dekat, yang mana Bapaknya dia adalah Kakak kandung dr Bapakku which is ‘pakde-ku’ dan Ibunya dia adalah Kakak kandung dari Ibuku which is ‘bude-ku’… bingung yaaa? hehehe… ya gtulah, jadi kami sekeluarga mmg sgt dekat, dan kepergian dia kemaren bnr2 buat aku sedih dan kehilangan.
makanya, acara kopdar anak CahAndong kmrn di pasfes pun terpaksa kulewati… so sorry guys… ;(
tapi emang dari paginya siih aku dah sms alex u ngasih tau klu aku ga bs dateng ke acara itu. Mudah2an kopdaran next time aku bs ikutan d yaa..

Back to my bro’…
aku cuma mo ngucapin take care, jangan lupa berdoa and ati ati ya mas… pokoknya doa keluarga pasti u mas dech! GBU Always…

all my cousins, mas sigit-mas yayo-mas heru

Once at Dufan with si gondrong